Meeting after the meetingLarry and I met after the meeting on Thursday. He did not give me a good feeling. He did not say "Jay you are doing a great job here and I just cannot have you leave." He said, "Jay I am a worker." I felt this implied that I am not - as I cannot work until 8PM everynight due to my personality, my family obligations, and my condition. I pretty much told him that. He did not like the fact that I 'attacked' him. I said that that outburst of mine was NOTHING compared to what I can do due to my condition. He and I agreed that I cannot take over his position as HE had planned. I had been living under this stress that I had to take the reins. I just did not have the heart to tell Larry. We had worked together for so long. You see, he is planning of retiring soon. I thought I could learn all this crap, but with my BP and meds, I just cannot. It is too much for my broken mind.................Oh, and I reminded him of my condition as he worked with me back in 1991 when I had my onset of BP. So I do not know how long I will last.Niacin I bought the old kind of naicin - unbuffered. I am flushed right now. But i like it. All the blood vessels in my body open!!!
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I hope and pray that you will make the right decision, whatever that may be. Good luck!
I know what you mean about not having a good feeling and I am dreading going back to work. I cannot stay on disability leave forever. I am thinking I will need to find a new job and hope I can do that before I have to go back. I would really like a fresh beginning somewhere. The nutrition changes you are making should help you feel better and I am glad I had a gastric bypass over a year ago now it helped me lose weight and I wonder if I would have felt worse then I do now. It helps me to know I can only eat so much I do not waste it on junk food or empty calories. Of course it did not help with my choice in medications because I do not absorb things like everyone else.
i pray that u make the right decision by you and do not let anyone dictate what actions u shud take and no1 shud be putting extra stress on you x