Here we go again

Okay, let me start off by saying...I am normally a positive person, but lately I have been in the dumps. Recently I have found out that four of my friends/acquaintances are pregnant again! One of them are much older than I and she already has 10 children. My close friend is pregnant with her first child, another one is pregnant with her third...oh yeah and I have to go to a baby shower on 4-11-15! I can't even watch the First Response commercials on TV! I have been trying to be happy for others, but it can be very difficult. I have faith in God that things will work out but ... its been 8 years since we've been trying to conceive. It happens the same way every time. Whenever I get a + hpt... af arrives days later! I recently have been prescribed 200 mg of Prometrium. I strongly feel that this will work this time. In Feb. 2015 I got a + hpt and it took my OB a few days to get my RX to me...so because I started the meds too late...I miscarried again! This has happened so many times that I can't count on two hands. I have had multiple break downs, anxiety, depression, and even thoughts of suicide. I have prayed and cried, prayed and cried, shut out friends and family for weeks at a time. I have gained weight because I am an emotional eater. Recently I decided to blog about my struggles in the efforts to find peace and comfort with others. I surely hope that I find strength through other women going through the same things that I am. My friends and family don't understand. I pray that this will renew my faith in God and help me to be in a better place no matter the out come.
--SUPER NATURAL SPIRIT--