Ugh
want to add in my post that I just put on the message board. It kinda turned into a venting session but I think it would be a good idea to document in my journal since it is something that happened involving this journey:
Well it happened to me....kept putting off telling people about my upcoming surgery and for some reason I let it slip to a friend yesterday. I am still pre-op and don't even have a scheduled date but mentioned that I was on the path. Her emediate reaction was scowl followed by a "I wish you wouldn't!...You should read this book that i'm reading, it's called wheat belly and it tells us about how everything we eat is poisoning us and killing us and making us fat." I'm just listening to her go on and on and then she starts to tell me about this person or that person who did it and looked great but ended up gaining back everything they lost and then some. "I should give you their email so they can tell you their experience and how they wished they never did it." Ugh....why did I open my mouth!? I was fine...excited...READY for this change!! Its things like this that make you wonder if your making the right decision....maybe this diet will work this time...maybe I can do it without the surgury! But then I woke up this morning and realized that all this negativity that has me questioning my decisions came from a person that has only ever had to lose 50lbs at most! And even when they had this weight to lose (according to them) they still looked great to me! They don't know the struggle i've had since childhood! The fact that I have tried every diet and medication I could get my hands on. That I eat really healthy most of the time (i'll admit the occasional unhealthy choice..who wouldn't) that I haven't drank any type of soda or diet soda or fruit juice in over 13 years and still never seen the scale move an inch....people just clasify me as a lazy person that stuffs whole cakes, bags of chips, and gallons of sodas down my throught daily! They don't know that 3 months ago I built (with a team of course) 11 house from the ground up...blood, sweat, and tears for 11 months... 10 hour days and I only lost 2 pounds the entire time. So I am 100% sure that this one person cannot tell me that all I need to do is read this book!! I KNOW that the tool I need to get me where I NEED to be so that I can live a healthier life is WLS!!!
Well it happened to me....kept putting off telling people about my upcoming surgery and for some reason I let it slip to a friend yesterday. I am still pre-op and don't even have a scheduled date but mentioned that I was on the path. Her emediate reaction was scowl followed by a "I wish you wouldn't!...You should read this book that i'm reading, it's called wheat belly and it tells us about how everything we eat is poisoning us and killing us and making us fat." I'm just listening to her go on and on and then she starts to tell me about this person or that person who did it and looked great but ended up gaining back everything they lost and then some. "I should give you their email so they can tell you their experience and how they wished they never did it." Ugh....why did I open my mouth!? I was fine...excited...READY for this change!! Its things like this that make you wonder if your making the right decision....maybe this diet will work this time...maybe I can do it without the surgury! But then I woke up this morning and realized that all this negativity that has me questioning my decisions came from a person that has only ever had to lose 50lbs at most! And even when they had this weight to lose (according to them) they still looked great to me! They don't know the struggle i've had since childhood! The fact that I have tried every diet and medication I could get my hands on. That I eat really healthy most of the time (i'll admit the occasional unhealthy choice..who wouldn't) that I haven't drank any type of soda or diet soda or fruit juice in over 13 years and still never seen the scale move an inch....people just clasify me as a lazy person that stuffs whole cakes, bags of chips, and gallons of sodas down my throught daily! They don't know that 3 months ago I built (with a team of course) 11 house from the ground up...blood, sweat, and tears for 11 months... 10 hour days and I only lost 2 pounds the entire time. So I am 100% sure that this one person cannot tell me that all I need to do is read this book!! I KNOW that the tool I need to get me where I NEED to be so that I can live a healthier life is WLS!!!
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