Change.

I changed my goal today. Changed. I plan to change. These issues I have, I have to change.
I know I'm not perfect, nor am I trying to be. I just want to be better then who I am now.
I hate this me I am now. I want to help myself. Not hurt myself. I want to be the me I should have been before I became me. This monster I am now. Wanting to hurt people. Wanting to hurt myself. Feeling this deep, deep sorrow that I just can't shake off. I don't know how long I'll actually keep that goal. But I'm gonna at least try to work to it. Just try.