BLAH!

So today I woke up with horrible horrible pain! I was in so much pain I was feeling as though I was going to vomit and was shaking and in tears... I havn't told anyone mainly because im waiting to see if it happens again or maybe it was a one off thing. Im due for my first period since my lap/surgery I'm interested to see what that is like.
Somehow I feel like the surgery hasn't worked.. So many factors indicate life as it's always been even after it... I am giving it 3-6 months and then Im asking for another gyno. My gyno forgets I can't take things, forgets what painful, and in the same sitting contradicted himself twice. This is my body - I'm 19 (20 this year) Im not willing to let him stuff me up.
On top of it I have a cold.. studying is hard I'm so tired!
Anyway - tomorrow is another day right?