I'm in pain, I go through the motions, but I hurt inside I go out with my boyfriend but feel how unfair it is to be having fun, and hear all the wonderful stories about his living healthy sons when my only son is gone. There is a dull ache that doesn't go away. If it wasn't for my beautiful daughter and my wonderful parents, I don't think I would have any reason to go on. But I don't see them everyday so here I am alone left with my misery.  I have no energy and I know the pain will only get worse as the numbness fades away. God help me!