I Wish.....

That I wouldn't have absolute terror attacks about wanting to harm myself, when the last 4 or so days I have really wanted to start cutting again. I've been very strong, but it can be so hard sometimes to be strong, especially when the negative voices come and try to haunt you. The last few days I feel like my body image of myself is going much more negative, I mean the good thing is I can't do anything bad in that realm since I'm hypoglycemic, but it's just so hard, so, so, so hard. And since I can't I just want to take it all out on cutting. I know I can do it, I'm 52 days strong, 52 DAYS! :)