the dreaded day is coming. it came so quick. how could one year almost be here? how could it possibly be one year since i saw his beautiful smile or heard his silly laugh. how could it be one year since he told me how much he cared about me. i wish may 14th could get skipped over. i'm so miserable. there are a milion things i need to say to CJ and a million things i'd love to hear back. instead i'm alone with my thoughts and memories. i just reminisce over the love i miss and think about the dreams that will never get to come true. i'm so heartbroken.