there's this kid... and he has CJ's eyes. and he jokes around like CJ. he is nowhere near as amazing not even close to the person CJ was. but something about him, little things remind me of CJ. and he really has CJ's eyes. i know it's wrong to even think of someone else.. but sometimes i hang out with him, every once in a while, as friends, and he makes me smile because i can see little CJ things in him. it just makes me smile because i can almost close my eyes and feel CJ there. is this very wrong? i feel guilty and embarrassed to even say it..