What a day

What a fucked up day. Husband gets fired. Doesnt come home from "work." Can't get a hold of him for 7 hours. Have no idea where he is or what hes doing. Finally his friend calls me to say hes at another friends house to drunk to drive. So then I have to find that persons phone number casue they didnt want to call me. Fuck that!! Don't call his friend to get him!! Call me ass hole!! When I finally get his address and get to his house he starts trying to apologize and i said don't. I don't want to get angry or mean. Don't say anything. I go inside my husband is obviously very drunk. I get him out to the car and this ass hole really tries to push my buttons by not buckling his seat belt when i tell him to. I then have to do it for him. Then I tell him to not say a word. A silent drive home, my anger is about to boil out of me, but I don't want to fight when hes drunk. I will end up more hurt. I get him inside and tell him to not say a word and go to bed no if, ands, or buts about it. Then I check his phone and I see that all the time he wasn't answer my phone calls or txts he was txting a friend! Fuck that!!! The one text i got from him way earlier in the day was that he went for a drive to cool off. Then i find out going through his phone that was a lie. He was at his freinds the whole time getting drunk!! Ahhhhh I am soooooo pissed!! I wanna drink soooo bad!! I broke down when we got home and saw his txts. I hit the counter and cried my eyes out. I wanted to cut so bad. Drink and cut. just make all this bs go away!! He has no job. what the fuck are we going to do?! He doesn't come home and lies to me!! why?! i dont need this shit!!