lonely

All day I've been alone.
I miss you now.
All the emotions of hate are gone.
I'm so alone. I need you.
Is this what it will feel like if I leave one day?
If it is idk if I can do it.
I'm miserable.
I'm alone.
No one to talk to.
No one to love.
Loneliness consumes me.
It's all I can think about.
Alone.
In the dark  hoping someone will come for me.
But you won't.
I'll be here forever.
Alone. All alone.
A burden to others.
A desperate girl grasping for anything.
I'm drowning in the darkness.
Reaching for something.
No one comes to my rescue.
Sinking....alone.
So I give in.
No one else cares, why should I?
These marks show my pain.
Battle scars.
Batteling my emotions.
My pain is my worst enemy.
My mind is my nemisis.
Alone.
Who cares?
Not you.
Neither do I.
Thats why I gave up long ago.
BUT now I fear this what I have to look forward to.
If I leave I'll always be lonely.
No one to come home to.
No one to talk to.
But can I over look your drinking?
Can my loneliness overcome my hatred of ur drinking?
Some days yes.
Today I say idc if ur drunk.
Just be with me.
Other days I say get away.
I'm so messed up.
Keep it all in.
Push it down.
SMILE!
Everythings GREAT!!
I'm happy :)
SUPER happy.
lies...its all lies.
if only i got paid to act.
everyday is a production of my fake happy life.
alone.
leave me be.
id rather suffer alone at this point.