Ok.  So after our phone conversation last night we sent eachother a few text messages.  He sent one apologizing for making me cry (whatever, few minutes before when I started cyring he acked me if it was one of my tactics).  Then the sadness started to turn into anger.  I thought about how many times I had told him that I couldn't be in this situation with him again, how I told him that it was unexceptable to call me names.  I even went as far to explain to him that it is less threatening when he calls the situation a name for example "this is stupid" vrs "you are stupid", or saying "your being" infront of the name "your being a bitch" instead of "you bitch".  Doesn't seem like that hard of a concept.  So all this anger built up in me last night and I wrote him a message, " I know I told you not to call me names.  You called me crazy, a crazy ass, and a selfish mother fucker today.  Thanks for caring about what I ask of you".  He responded with " if your going to start breaking down every word I say, then I will too".  Are you serious?  How is that breaking down everything he says!! If I did that I would have killed myself along time ago!  That's so abusive, right?  Making an exuse for doing something that is unexceptable to me.  How about an apology, asshole!  I also wrote him " An apology would have been just fine, but it's probably my fault you said those things anyways, right? And for the record, I don't cry as a tactic, I cry cuz I'm hurt.  And having the person you love most in this world completely neglect your emotional needes and wellbeing is beyond hurtful to me."  His response to that was " Do you want to stop fighting and worry about getting here?  I will do everything I can for you."  I basically wrote back If by stop fighting he means stop sticking up for myself and for the way I deserve to be treated than no.  I said I won't ever stop sticking up for myself because I am not spinleless and I deserve better.  He totally tries to divert everything I say away from that topic. Like hello?  He owes me many apologies and explanations! Right?  I seriously can't put it into words what he's doing.  That's why its hard for me to stand up for myself and be able to explain what I mean.  I know what he's doing is wrong.  But how do I put it into words?  I woke up this morning to this text "Morning angel, I just want to know that you will get to me.  I will do whatever is in my power for you.  I love you and I miss you, I need you, you are everything to me." Oh my god!  Even though last night he said he didn't give a fuck about this anymore, said that I was crazy, told me everything was my fault, etc.  How can someone flip that easy?  As soon as he gets where he wants to be, has the control he feels comfortable with then things change.  I couln't believe that text this morning, I had to vent!!! I hope that therapist gets back to me today...I'm loosing my mind!