i tried to post a journal and it still doesnt work. i have no idea what went thru or  not because it kept kickig me off and if any of you guys saw something or nothing..i dunno, i am sorry. i tried. i am in a very angry mood today. not worth discussing about. just dont need reminders to make things worse. i just wish i had something to beat the shit out of. i need one of those inflatable things or something that wouldnt hurt or damage anything and just let out all of my frustrations!!!! something gotta give. im ok, i will get over it...but till then grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, watch out!!! lol