well i am back. i really needed a break. as is i have 21 messages and 16 hugs to catch up on!!! i will be on here for awhile and thats fine. i appreciate all the love and support i have rcvd from everybody here.well at this point, trey never left. friday we talked "again" and i could see the pain in his eyes that he really didnt want to leave...even though it would have been only for a few days or so. do i regret this decision....kinda. we always have so many talks and nothing ever really comes out of it. so what makes this time different? i honestly dont know. i guess i will find out soon enough.