awe..Mindy, i knew you where having it rough..but this is a lot more rough than i thought..i am so sorry girl.. you don\'t deserve a second of this..do you think he\'s doing it on purpose? you need to think about what your gonna do..love you, always here no matter what.
so glad you poured your heart and soul out...that is good and healthy for you to do...you can\'t hold everything in...all the irritation just piles up when we do that...wishing you the absolute best today and always....hang in there and we are here for you...
aw mindy my friend. i so sorry your hurting so bad. god im crying for you. i hope he relises what a treuly wonderful person he is hurting. you dont deserve this. i think you got to search your heart my friend and decide whats best for you . im always here for you always .x.x.x marie
I too was in a similar relationship for years (not quite as intense as yours but never the less bloody crap!)I tried talking/actions but nothing worked !I was frequetly ending our relationship but he always managed to talk me round! That is 1 big regret in my life that i went to hell and back with almost no support from him!I can look back now and thank god he found another woman and had the strength to move on.It was an awfull time in my life but i\'m so glad it happened. as i was able to move on and find peace within myself. yes of course it took a while longer of feeling crap but i no longer have to live in a constant state of worry. To be honest i don\'t think he did alot on purpose but these actions came because he no longer felt the same 4 me that he once. He still lies and cheats now and loses every girlfriend because of it and he is the 1 who is unhappy in life. You must do some real soul searching and decide if you want to carry on in this relationship or find peace with yourself. You obviously love this guy to bits and i really hope things work out 4 the best for you. You are a young / beautiful woman who deserves better than this.
thank you all for your support and you kind words and advice. i am not strong enough or ready to make these decisions. i think a part of me blames his bipolar and personality disorder as to why he treats me like he does and pray his meds will make things better. maybe i am fooling myself or its just wishful thinking. i am just not ready to throw in the towel. part of also feels that he truly does not see the damge on me but rather how my reactions affect him.i love him so much and i really do want to be with him...i just want to stop hurting and crying. i have a feeling he will be angry with this and i guess that just the risk i have to take. maybe one of these days he will open his eyes and love me the way i so crave and for me to fall back in love with the man i feel in love with when we met.
Hope you can get through this, you both seem to be going through a tough time at the minute.There\'s nothing i could say to help the situation.But my best wishes are with you both.You seem to love each other, so stick at it, it\'ll come good in the end.
I can relate to a lot of what you vented, it wasn\'t so long ago I was going through the same heartache. You\'re a good person to stand by him, when things are good again it will be appreciated.
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awe..Mindy, i knew you where having it rough..but this is a lot more rough than i thought..i am so sorry girl.. you don\'t deserve a second of this..do you think he\'s doing it on purpose? you need to think about what your gonna do..love you, always here no matter what.
so glad you poured your heart and soul out...that is good and healthy for you to do...you can\'t hold everything in...all the irritation just piles up when we do that...wishing you the absolute best today and always....hang in there and we are here for you...
aw mindy my friend. i so sorry your hurting so bad. god im crying for you. i hope he relises what a treuly wonderful person he is hurting. you dont deserve this. i think you got to search your heart my friend and decide whats best for you . im always here for you always .x.x.x marie
I too was in a similar relationship for years (not quite as intense as yours but never the less bloody crap!)I tried talking/actions but nothing worked !I was frequetly ending our relationship but he always managed to talk me round! That is 1 big regret in my life that i went to hell and back with almost no support from him!I can look back now and thank god he found another woman and had the strength to move on.It was an awfull time in my life but i\'m so glad it happened. as i was able to move on and find peace within myself. yes of course it took a while longer of feeling crap but i no longer have to live in a constant state of worry. To be honest i don\'t think he did alot on purpose but these actions came because he no longer felt the same 4 me that he once. He still lies and cheats now and loses every girlfriend because of it and he is the 1 who is unhappy in life. You must do some real soul searching and decide if you want to carry on in this relationship or find peace with yourself. You obviously love this guy to bits and i really hope things work out 4 the best for you. You are a young / beautiful woman who deserves better than this.
thank you all for your support and you kind words and advice. i am not strong enough or ready to make these decisions. i think a part of me blames his bipolar and personality disorder as to why he treats me like he does and pray his meds will make things better. maybe i am fooling myself or its just wishful thinking. i am just not ready to throw in the towel. part of also feels that he truly does not see the damge on me but rather how my reactions affect him.i love him so much and i really do want to be with him...i just want to stop hurting and crying. i have a feeling he will be angry with this and i guess that just the risk i have to take. maybe one of these days he will open his eyes and love me the way i so crave and for me to fall back in love with the man i feel in love with when we met.
Oh gosh Mindy, I am not sure what to say. I am so so sorry he is doing this to you. You do not deserve this. I\'ll write to you more personally.
Yeah, I\'m the big bad guy here, aren\'t I? Fuck it.
trey is not the bad guy...we have a lot of problems that need to be worked out.
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Hope you can get through this, you both seem to be going through a tough time at the minute.There\'s nothing i could say to help the situation.But my best wishes are with you both.You seem to love each other, so stick at it, it\'ll come good in the end.
I can relate to a lot of what you vented, it wasn\'t so long ago I was going through the same heartache. You\'re a good person to stand by him, when things are good again it will be appreciated.
I hope typing it out worked wonders for you soul!
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