happy new year!!! i hope it will be filled with lots of happiness, love, and good health.hopefully you all of you guys had a great time last night. me? i actually feel really bad. while we were making dinner i started to not feel so great. a panick attack came on our of nowhere. trey told me to go sit and he would make the rest. he made the taco soup first and then i was going to make the chimichangas afterwards. the soup was super yummy and we were a bit full from it, so i decided to wait until a little later to cook the rest. i was feeling a bit better but the panic attack still lingered. i felt so bad that i was crying. i really wanted to have such a good night together, instead i was having panic attacks. trey made me a drink and we watched some tv. out of nowhere, i felt even worse and i needed to run to the bathroom to get sick. i was feeling so miserable. i wasnt drunk or anything but maybe the drink did not agree with me. we watched to ball go down and we hugged and kissed. then another mild one came on. we then watched a movie and i tried to deal with it as best as i could. i went to sleep feeling really bad. i was hoping for a really good night, instead i was sick and trey had to deal with that. he did say he was disappointed with the evening, but he knew it wasnt my fault. i still felt really bad. i kept waking up every so often and he didnt get to bed until after 5:30. so he will be asleep a good part of this day. so not only do i feel bad about last night, today is gloomy and who knows when he will wake up, i also have to go back to work tomorrow. so i am a bit glum.i'll get over it. at least the week will be short....hopefully it will go quickly!!!so tonight i will make the chimangas and hopefully we will have a better night. i just feel so down right now. what a way to welcome the new year. but i will try to think positively. it will get better...i hope!
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big comforting hugs! :)
Mindy, i am so very sorry, that you experienced awful panic attack, and that you didn\'t feel well. god bless your heart. Things will be alright hun. Lots of wonderful things happened leading up to the end of 2007. All the great progress that you and Trey made, as a couple, and also, individual. You both, really made lots of progress that you both bring into 2008, and together, the progress will spring step you both toward achieving lots more progress in 2008. :)
We\'re always here for you and Trey, anytime you need too talk. i\'m so glad that you are writing in your journal. It does help a lot, to write. :)
keep writing, and also, i hope and pray, that you feel 100% better very soon. :)
You and Trey, got sunflower coming in 2008. i look forward to growing a sunflower for you both, and sharing it\'s story of it growing strong and tall, and blossoming, and smiling at the sun. just like how you and Trey, have grown strong, and tall, and have made it through all rough times. No matter how severe any storms that come, sunflowers always stand strong, just like you and Trey, always standing strong, making it through all rough times. When a storm comes, stand strong together. :) :)
i\'m sorry you had to deal with panic attacks last night...i\'m glad Trey was understanding...that helps...but try not to beat yourself up....hang in there and i hope you two have a wonderful day and night!
Sounds like you were afraid of the coming new year? Why? Panic attacks to me seem to be brought on by what we fear..whether actual or imagined (Goddess knows my mind sets up worse case scenarios that never come to pass)...relax! Breathe!! One thing Ive noticed when I read your journal, is that you and Trey support each other emtotionally. That is wonderful.
LETS HOPE ITSTARTS BETTER TODAY LOVE .ALL THE BEST FOR YOU AND TRAY XX
i sure hope so guys. thanks for all of the support!
no point worrying about things you can\'t change, things will get better, just try to feel less guilty, your better than you give yourself credit for. have some fun today. \"hugs\"
sounds like you need either different meds, or a different dosage, you shouldn\'t be suffering like this.
Be thankful for the small things that go right. Our plans didn\'t go as planned but we hugged kissed and turned out the lights. Sorry your struggling with panic attacks still. I\'m right there with you giving you hugs and special well wishes. It is hard. I so want our special nights or days to go well. Its hard with two sick people. Never lose hope
thank you all for your kind words. as of right now they feel that the type of meds i am on are fine, but they are slowly increasing the dose. hopefully that will work some. i hope!