2 journals in 2 days...i am on a roll! wahoo.things were thankfully quiet last night, but the feelings of helplessness, anger, and hurt remain. i cant help that. for whatever reason i just wanted to keep myself at a distance from him...but ultimately, that is something hard for me to do. when you truly love somebody, it is so hard to let go, even a little bit. i just have to hope and pray that things will change and get better. i just want to be happy again.the song i will share today is an old favorite of mine...orgy-stitches;stitchesIf it stayed i'd never leave it If that turned around I'd grieve the special dirty things that we used to talk about I mean that loving you is strange And adored by me throughout oh no it's you again Someday soon you'll find that someone Waiting for the chance to beat you Drooling on the set to feel you Blessing you with every kiss Tying yourself to me Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me So precious loving the thrill Tying yourself to me Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me So precious loving the thrill Such the patient one who needs me The spoiled one who wins So shocking where's your sense Don't you know i hate you, ohoh Unsatisfied,you little girl. Tying yourself to me Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me So precious loving the thrill Tying yourself to me Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me So precious loving the thrill Rolling dice and seeming queer Bastard love,a sick affair Let's see what new disease you'll fetch I mean that fucking you is strange And adored by me throughout Oh no it's you again Blessing you with every kiss So precious you know this hate of mine exploded I'm so deranged you know I will never be the same Tying yourself to me Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me So precious loving the thrill Tying yourself to me Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me So precious loving the thrill i hope everybody has a good day...after all, it is halloween!! be safe.take care, mindy