i had a better evening last night...but i am back to a funk this morning. i just want things to get better all the way around. i hate things feeling so bleak...i just want to be happy again. i dont think that is too much to ask for, right?anyway...my songs for the day. there were several songs that hit me thic morning...together and nobody's home by avril lavigne, the anti suicide song; adam's song by blink 182, and the following 2, always by saliva and amber by 311. in the song always...sometimes i do feel this way. just giving up and not bothering anymore. but right now, even though i can relate to the song, i amnot at the point where at the chorus he sings "i'm done with you." thankfully i heard a more uplifting song right after it which was amber...a song that always brings me up a bit. i will try to keep as positive as i can..but trust me, it is really hard when you are this depressed. Always- Saliva I hear, a voice say "Don't be so blind"It's telling me all of these things That you would probably hide!Am I your one and only desire?Am I the reason you breathe, Or am I the reason you cry? Always, always, always,I just can't live without you!I love you! I hate you!I can't live without you!I breathe you,I taste you!I just can't live without you!I just can't take anymoreThis life of solitudeI guess then I'm out that doorAnd now I'm done with you!(Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you)I feel, like you don't want me around I guess I'll pack all my thingsAnd I'll see you aroundIt's all, been bottled up till nowAs I walk out your door All I can hear is the soundAlways, always, always, I just can't live without you!I love you,I hate you,I can't live without you!I breathe you,I taste you,I just can't live without you!I just can't take anymoreThis life of solitudeI guess that I'm out the doorAnd now I'm done with you.I love you,I hate you,I just can't live without you.I left you my heart,Why would you tear it apart?Always, always, always, always. I see, the blood all over your hands Does it make you feel, more like a man?Was it all, just a part of your plan? The pistol's shakin' in my handsAnd all I hear is the sound.I love you, I hate you,I just cant live without you!I breathe you,I taste you,I just can't live without you! I just can't take anymoreThis life of solitudeI guess then i'm out that doorAnd now i'm done with you. I love you,I hate you,I just can't live without you!I love you,I hate you,I just can't live without you. I just can't take anymoreThis life of solitudeI pick myself off the floor,And now i'm done with you. Always,Always,Always.311 - Amber LyricsBrainstormtake me away from the normI got to tell you somethingthis phenomenonI had to put it in a songand it goes likeWhoa, amber is the color of your energywhoa, shades of gold displayed naturallyyou ought to know what brings me hereyou glide through my head blind to fearand I know whywhoa, amber is the color of your energywhoa, shades of gold displayed naturallyWhoa, amber is the color of your energywhoa, shades of gold displayed naturallyYou live too far awayyour voice rings like a bell anywaydon't give up your independenceunless it feels so rightnothing good comes easilysometimes you gotta fightWhoa, amber is the color of your energywhoa, shades of gold displayed naturallylaunched a thousand ships in my heart, so easystill it's fine from afar, and you know thatwhoa, brainstorm take me away from the normwhoa, I got to tell you something
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im here for you sweetie, your so strong~
glad you had a good evening and i pray your friday starts looking alittle brighter......thanks for sharing your songs and your heart! peace to you, dear friend!
Hello Mindy....Sometimes we just cant stop thinking to damned much....I love to pick at lyrics in songs,but mainly negative I\'m afraid...I find it a great way to express how i feel. Have a great weekend...I\'m going to get extremely drunk and watch music video\'s on Youtube...I lead such varied active life!! lol
You don\'t need to die
You\'re here
And there\'s a reason why
You don\'t need to cry
We\'re here to provide
A cure for that pain
That you\'re holding deep inside
You don\'t need to
Throw it all away
We\'re here for you
Every single day
To help you get through
Open up and let us reach through
To chase your pains away
Life is not always fair
And doesn\'t always treat you right
Sometimes darkness creeps in
And drowns out all the light
But don\'t let the evil fool you
Into thinking happiness awaits when you die
We\'re here to help you fight
Stand up with your chin up
Everything will be all right.
that\'s something that i wrote. i thought you might like it. hang in there, sweety and take care.
just remember, down deep we are all stronger than we believe. you have showed amazing courage and positivity. thanks for sharing what is dear to you. i too listen to a lot of that music and can relate. know that you are loved, xoxo
Reaching out like you are through music is so important. Its your thing you need to keep special.
i understand. reflects on what i\'m feeling now...
i love always!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im sorry you were feeling bad :( it sucks when you want so bad to feel happy but you can\'t just, press a button or something and make it work.
i hope youre feeling a little better now!!!