wish i could tell everybody that i am fine..but right now, i just feel so down. i try to think positively and hope for the best...but things just continue to look bleak. all of you have been so wonderful to me and i greatly appreciate it. i also appreciate those of you who have reached out to my husband.i am going to try things differently to see if it will really make a difference. i am willing to try anything in order to save us and our marriage. anyway...one of my problems is that i do not know how to take care of myself. i am so used to taking care of others...that i fall thru the cracks. the only thing that helps me is really is music. i just let myself be taken away. those of you who are seriously into music know what i mean. everyday traveling to and from work i listen to music. i try to foget anything that is bothering me and hope the music will lift me. there are songs that speak out to me...such as certain sarah maclaclan songs...fallen, train wreck, and i am not trying to hurt somebody...but sometimes the song stupid hits me. one of things i love doing is sharing music with others. everyday i will share a song with you all that affected me in someway that day. sorry if this is dorky, but i think it will help me..and maybe some of you. the following is a song that i heard this morning by Three Days Grace..."Time Of Dying"On the ground I layMotionless in painI can see my life flashing before my eyesDid I fall asleep?Is this all a dreamWake me up, I'm living a nightmareI will not die (I will not die)I will surviveI will not die, I'll wait here for youI feel alive, when you're beside meI will not die, I'll wait here for youIn my time of dyingOn this bed I layLosing everythingI can see my life passing me byWas it all too muchOr just not enoughWake me up, I'm living a nightmareI will not die (I will not die)I will surviveI will not die, I'll wait here for youI feel alive, when you're beside meI will not die, I'll wait here for youIn my time of dyingI will not die, I'll wait here for youI feel alive, when you're beside meI will not die, I'll wait here for youIn my time of dyingI will not die, I'll wait here for youI feel alive, when you're beside meI will not die, I'll wait here for youIn my time of dyingcheck out the song if you wish.anyway, time to put on a smile and begin my day at work. take care all,mindy
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Good luck with everything. I hope u have a good day at work :) Ive never heard that song before ill have to check it out sometime.
that\'s not dorky! i love music....i\'ve shared songs too...i love jennifer knapp, and i love sarah m too! most importantly thanks for sharing your heart...it is very beautiful...and it is important to take care of yourself so that your love tank will get filled! prayers for only the best for you!
of course it\'s not dorky! music, can sooth the soul, and bring us lots of great joy, and happiness. :)
i\'m really sorry, you are feeling down. things will be fine. stay strong, and remember, this rough time, won\'t weaken you! it will make you strong! your marriage stronger! don\'t ever give up! :)
i love listening to music too. It\'s great! theraputic, and can brighten our days. keep enjoying! it\'s nice, that you have found something that can uplift your spirits (music) :)
always here for you! :)
I have every confidence in you. Your trying and that\'s huge.
thanks for all the kind words from all of you!!!