I am just so fucking frustrated. First my husbands drinking has been nothing new. He how much this upsets me...and nothing really changes. Yes he is better then he used to be...but still. I woke this morning to find another 12pack empty. This was after I continually told him that money was tight this week. I really needed him to be more considerate. Three 12packs in a row. So of course I am furious. I wrote him a note telling him exactly how  I felt before I left for work. I LOVE leaving for work all upset. Anyway, he had his therapy session earlier and was home all afternoon. When he didn't call me around the usual time, I called him. He gave me what I know now was a flimsy apology, saying he was watching the game, about to eat, and was tired. I had my therapy session at 4 and he wanted me to wake him when I got home. So its a little after 5 and I saw him heading for the bed. He said he needed to get back to sleep. I was already even more upset because the dishes were piled high in the sink. I was really hoping he would take the initiative and do them himself. I also discovered that on top of not taking his meds last night, he diidn't take his meds this morning.And the real doozy was that during the time he normally would call me, he was busy watching and downloading porn. What the fuck is he doing? He knows how I feel. He knows I was already upset. So lets add more shit to the bundle. He is destroying us. Trust there are more things than what I wrote here but come on...how much more am i supposed to take. I do not have infinite patience. I hate being upset and huring. I am tired of being miserable and even more tired of fighting for us when he makes no effort to help us. I am just so angry. I just wish he would wake up and fully grasp the severity of our situation and do something about it before it is too late.