I'm sitting here bymyelf scared to death and crying my eyes out, his hearing is in less than an hour and I don't know what to do with myself. I just called the US probation officer who was assigned to his case to explain why I am not there. I broke down and asked her to explain to the judge that I have the flu or I would be by his side. I know he is going to get mad at me but I can't help but worry. I feel stupid now that I did it but I'm not sorry, I just didn't want them to think that his mother doesn't care enough about him to be there with him. I can't wait until I get the phone call that everything is OK, I'm trying so hard to stay positive.