I'm so miserable today I can't stand myself, I just want to go in my room and be left alone. It has been a long week because of the holiday, my grandson has been with us since Monday, he goes with his father tomorrow and it won't come soon enough for me. Don't get me wrong I love him to death but he is a little terror. His mother (my daughter) has been driving me crazy lately, she's been telling me all week that she doesn't feel good (only when it's to her advantage). She has been going to a program daily but has missed 3 days this week (somethings up). I just can't take this anymore I want to run away. I know I have to do something but I just can't seem to do what I know I have to do. I wish I had the answers, I've prayed about it but I still can't seem to do what I have to. I hate this. Everybody else knows (and I know too) but i just can't make her leave, WHY!!! Because know matter what, I love her and I know I might love her to death and I'm scared and miserable. I need some help and I need to make myself stronger, I'm going to keep on praying, maybe God will give me the strength to make the right decisions.
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Sorry you are feeling this way.. I am too.. just like I want to hide.. I think I should do something to burn off my anxiety and it feels like too much work.. So I am just taking a walk.. I think it has to help, can\'t hurt! I do think children can drive ya nuts too.. they are nothing but energy.. Hang in there hope you have a better weekend! Please check out Alanon if you have not.. you don\'t have to be a full fledge member but you can get tips on how to deal with your daughter or anyone going through their own stuff.. ways to disconnect just enough to give yourself a break!~
thanks Kim, I wih I had the energy to even take a walk, I can\'t even seem to get in the shower today. I hate when I feel this way and most if it is because of my daughter. I\'ve gone to some Alanon meetings but just haven\'t found the right one yet, I do see my therapist weekly and sometimes it helps sometimes it doesn\'t. The best way for me to detatch is to go in my room and come here or just take a nap. I hope you feel better too.
Iam sorry that your both are having a hard time right now I hope it gets better soon.