trying hard to keep positive today.  pain playing up today, feeling stressed and tired, but i think i'm allowed to feel that way right now.  sometimes its ok to feel a little self-pity.  and today's that day for me.  i'll be fine tomorrow, but tonight i wanna get my head round my news.  i have to go in for a thyroidectomy next friday.  the biopsies were once again inconclusive, but endo said that cos lumps have significantly grown in 6 weeks and evidence suggests toxic carcinoma that there is no time to waste.  it must go!  i am once again referred or oncologist.  what next i wonder?????never mind.  tomorrow's another day.  it's another new beginning and the sun will shine.  i know it will!