well, just wanted to give you all an update, and let you know that i am still feeling about the same. One minute, i think i'm ok... and the next, i'm crying again, or having a panic attack. (i've had 2 already today)Thank you to all of you who responded to my last journal. knowing that you all care DOES help, and i know that this will get easier, but for now... it just really hurts. I guess i can update my goal to learn to feel again... at least i am able to cry about all this... that's SOMETHING, right???