life.....
For once, I just want shit to go right.
For once, I would like to get the things I want.
Just fucking once....
Life has been so complicated lately. I just moved into a new place. I'm adjusting just fine. Things have been great in that aspect. Other areas it's rather grey. My car is falling apart. My df and I have been fighting somewhat. He has a hard time trusting me it seems. He has gone through my phone once. Probably has again. I haven't given him a reason to not trust me. So, I don't get it. Other than he's that insecure. Which I get, we all have our insecurities. But how much is enough. By April 24th, I should be given birth, but that isn't gonna happen. I've been trying, but it isn't getting me anywhere. I would like df to be serious about it, but most of the time he helps himself, which is making it that much harder. I'm not against it, but I've tried telling him every other day. According to him he has super sperm. Which is easy for him to say, since he has 2 kids already. Though he doesn't get to see them. But that's another story. Then of course every fucking person around me gets fucking pregnant. It must be nice to be able to fall pregnant with a drop of a dime. I don't get it. And how do people regularly taking birth control get pregnant, but I can't.
My df is addicted to gaming. If he isn't on the 360 then he's on his phone. He just told me this is his last game, and he goes and starts another one. I feel like I'm slipping again, and I hate it. Eventually I will pull myself back to the surface.
Anyways, I think I'm done venting......
For once, I would like to get the things I want.
Just fucking once....
Life has been so complicated lately. I just moved into a new place. I'm adjusting just fine. Things have been great in that aspect. Other areas it's rather grey. My car is falling apart. My df and I have been fighting somewhat. He has a hard time trusting me it seems. He has gone through my phone once. Probably has again. I haven't given him a reason to not trust me. So, I don't get it. Other than he's that insecure. Which I get, we all have our insecurities. But how much is enough. By April 24th, I should be given birth, but that isn't gonna happen. I've been trying, but it isn't getting me anywhere. I would like df to be serious about it, but most of the time he helps himself, which is making it that much harder. I'm not against it, but I've tried telling him every other day. According to him he has super sperm. Which is easy for him to say, since he has 2 kids already. Though he doesn't get to see them. But that's another story. Then of course every fucking person around me gets fucking pregnant. It must be nice to be able to fall pregnant with a drop of a dime. I don't get it. And how do people regularly taking birth control get pregnant, but I can't.
My df is addicted to gaming. If he isn't on the 360 then he's on his phone. He just told me this is his last game, and he goes and starts another one. I feel like I'm slipping again, and I hate it. Eventually I will pull myself back to the surface.
Anyways, I think I'm done venting......
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