today......

Hello to those who choose to be my all time friends here on DS and truely be my DS angels. You may blink, You may take that strangely or you might be a true beleiever..that there are DS angels cause when I Turn to you things work out somehow.. Please excuse any spelling errors today for I do not wish to concentrate on that, I wish to reflect today on -------Yesterday-------and the day before that---- and ever so long before that,..... and first wish to thank the few here that have kept in contact with me and truely cared, I know I need to reach out to my DS friends more and feel My Mind and speirit might just about be ready to do that,.....
Yes when your down in the deep, what people in jail would call the hole you can not help others really you can only prepare to help others by what your learning.....while helping yourself.
I got to contact the wife of my Phycyatrist who passed away, she was so nice to me and sent me my records,... I was expecting sometining totally different,. I was expecting some technicacal Jargan, a Diagnosis,.. something that might help me.
WEll, Guess what what I saw did help me and I realize it today, It was day by day kinda like my journal here,.. what I had said, what I had felt,. and I say YES YES YES YES YES YES YES I REMEMMEBER, AND YES YES NOT MUCH IS CHANGING,...
I remember that first day my Dr. Gave me the merical pill that got me in control where i was not so impulsive to the boss and not screaming no at them anymore, that has kept my bad job where noone cares about the Human element, but it's to late after loosing such great jobs to find another one where I would be left alone basically like a data entry job.
 
GOT TO RUN BUT WILL WRITE LATER,...
 mICHAEL