Well, today went to the doctors, he made a small change in my medicine to hopefully help my anxiety, I am seriously thinking of changing jobs very very soon.
I am supose to call the hospital and schedule my treatments to start again, i am scared to do that but know without the treatments a bleed will eventually form and i would be back being admitted to the hospital, and that's if it was caught soon enough before i lapsed into a coma.
i dont want more treatments but guess im stuck, and should restart them soon, i have a job on thursday and nothing after that.
well, that's about it,..



work is the same, and my family wants me to schedule my treatment, i know in my mind they are right, and it would be the right thing to do but im so scared...

silly I know,.. im tired of IV\'s and stuff,.. very tired.....