Good Afternoon World... Ok, where do I start... Well, I was asked to go to a Job this morning but I didn't go, I got home late also last night, but AnYwaY It felt So GOOD not going today, I know Im probably wrong by doing so, but it FELT GOOD!!!Next, Teresa thought she would be Mrs. FIXIT last night and took her Stereo Apart, well she pulled out this band from the Circuit board, I tried to get it working again but I quickly Called " TIME OF DEATH" I am not an Electriction.Well, we ran to two stores today and finally Got a New One for her, It's amazing to me how Scarce the 5 CD Changers are and the Cheaper Modles are, things are getting Expensive these days, but we found this one unit that was not expensive and should work out that is Similar to her old one.GUESS WHAT FOLKS!!!! Today we Recieved the TITLE to the CAR!!!! WHAAH HOOO!!! IT"S OURS!!!!!!!!! Not the Newest Or Best But IT"S OURS!!!!!! Oh WhAT a FEELING, I just wish I had all that money we made in payments, but no more calls, "Where's Your Payment!" Geesh...I uploaded a Little Pamflet I got from a video, I printed them out and going to bring them for group members tuesday.Im at the Libruary now and teresa is at Curves, It got me today cause she doesent seem to know how to TALK, No does not ask me if she can go just grabs her Gym bag as we are leaving, and I guess Im supose to get the Hint, I wish she would Talk to me, she says she already told me she goes on Monday Tuesday and Wensday well this is FRIDAY so what sense does this make, I guess cause she was unable to go a couple days cause of my work, Im just supose to know she wants to go off schedule, Hmm, I try, I really do, BUt I would like More Communication..I told her not to take the New Stereo Apart, haha, I think shell Listen...Im trying to make her happy, I really am, sometimes I don't know if Im doing enough or how to go about things Maybe it's cause we are both grieving Losses,I think I told you she just lost her Uncle now, so grieving loss of carole,Uncle and Her mom and dad...Im Grieving Carole Bigtime and Mom and actually I miss my Grandmother, My grand dad was cool also, but Grandma never forgot my birthday Always sent me something when My entire family not even my parents would send or say anything about it. yes, I miss grandma. She didn't fully understand me, but she was cool...I Believe im off work tonight, and Im going to enjoy it, I don't like the schedule they have laid in my lap,.. and one week I have only 2 stores, I think I set myself up for that one, it will get a little better after that week im sure if I m still there,.. but actually Im not going to worry so much about work, I need stress relief, I really do, and I don't think Money is worth all the stress Im under right now, I know my dad and some here would agree that Im possiably off my rocker, but thats how I feel right now...I think I need some Me time and that's getting hard to have... and I need some understanding, Im finding that Here On DS with you wonderful people, and its good, but I wish I could get that with Work and with my dad.today I heard that Love is stronger then Death...We heard the Song today, something told teresa to ask me to turn on the radio and it was on.. I think carole was with us today...Im still confused I want her back with me so bad, either back in Physical Life or back in the other relm with me.The group leader says I believe that grief ends, or gets much better to handle, but I heard today that one experiances periods of Grief Bursts for there Entire Life. That's Scary... Well, The libruary is going to close and throw me out, I got to log off here, I will have to wait outside Curves for teresa I hope she's almost done,.. Our Little Girl Bear Pheinox will keep me company... teresa and I act through her and makes us laugh, those times are good , it seems to Break the Ice, and there is alot of Ice in my world right now...Well, later... gota Split... Hugs,.. Michael
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