Ahoy, Im back,Thanks to everyone for letting me lean on them and holding me up....

 Well, the past two nights were awful, the Sophora store had a DM that was Crazy, she kept telling us our job, I wanted to tell her we do this everyday, then last night I found out she called my DM and gave Hell, Then my work is bitching cause I didn't count I did supervisor Jobs, I intend on voicing my opinion on that cause it peeves me that my company would think I was trying to pull something over on them, see the computer tells if youve not counted, I could of opened a machine and had the computer not do that, but I didn't think My bosses would be such jerks, Especially after all I do for them, It plainly Clearly is not appreciated.

Last night there was an Outside Auditor, and man was he a pain in the neck, I have him at my store tonight, Im praying I can keep my cool and not loose my job, he is really awful.

I got to sleep in this morning, I know that was a good thing.. I hate working so much cause things I need to do at home fall behind..

I have several Odd jobs coming up to fill in for the slowdown, they are not fun ones though I hope I can make it through.

Im so worried, Looks like we spent to much money and the bank account is probably going to bounce before we get the money replaced, It's awful, and I can't do anything about it, See I lost my checkbook on the computer a couple of times, and didn't have a true balance, and looks like I goofed up,.. Im hoping it won't be catastrophic! I hope we get out of this mess, Now there is No money till payday,that will be tuff also, but is just a few days away.

Im so nervous about tonight with that auditor, I wish he was not there but I know he will be.

Wow I have wensday off I need to regroup and figure out my schedules and the odd jobs, and just got a call today Hospice is starting up next week, Im hoping that will help, Im wanting to find a preacher who might be able to answer some of my questions, does anyone know if there is one on DS.. I told my boss even though there is no work that week, I don't want to do the 7AM Sunday store coming up,.. and I feel I might like to maybe go visit the church again, I work every sunday morning, even though Ive told them no on several occasions,. this one coming up I want off.

I feel Carole is watching over me, but I just don't know, I get these feelings sometimes where I don't know if it is God trying to reassure me that he does exist and is here, or Carole, Or Both of them, it's Quite Confusing to me.

I did find comfort with my dad telling me i have a gravesite and my expenses will be covered, Im still realling from the thought of paying dad back for Caroles cremation..

The vacume cleaner fell apart the other day and I ordered parts, they are sending them to me now, when they get here I should be able to put things back together, and then I will need to hop over to the store and get some bags, I didn't think of them when I placed the order, haha! I needed 2 washers and they charged me 3.00 for them, Im wondering if I went to home depot I might of gotten them cheaper, Hmmmm, Crazy sometimes isn't it... I sure think so.....

Well, guess Ill swing right out here now, and join the cruel world, Untill work tonight, Oh God can I keep my cool, Will I keep my job, Will the Nightmare be over or drag on... I don't know,. and it frightens me not knowing,...

These people last night counted really strangly and made mistakes, Will I have them or fools tonight, or experianced people, There are only 2 others with me tonight, that in itself Is scary cause It will drag on I feel, and the Auditor will be harping on me and wanting to check everything,.. CAN I KEEP MY COOL!

I HOPE SO!!

                 Later... Michael