Hi, I got down today,.. I recieved a packet from Humana with Caroles Last medicade Statements,.. and the last hospital was really doging her medicade, and It brought back memories of her in the hospital, and what I might not of done,What I could of done,.. What I didn't see... And it brought a heavy thought that I have lost her,. she's Not here,.. I can't make her happy anymore,.. I can't help her with things,.. I can't even hold her.

                          I work a double tomarrow,. as usual for Sundays,.. that has to stop soon I feel,.. And Early in the am start also, and they gave me this next to impossiable Task, I just don't know really what to do, Im not a Mind reader.

            Well,I will have to try to get some sleep soon,... that's getting more difficult lately,... I got the note from hospice yesterday,.. Ive got to remind work soon about needing time off if they interfear with the hours.. it's going to be on Thursdays.. I will go and see how things go,.. Teresa thinks also we should go,. So Im going to go,.... I also got notice there giving a holiday memorial service, I thought I might go to that also,...

 Bye,, atleast for now folks,...