Hello cruel world.. ( and recient Kind Friends ).. I will keep this short tonight but I felt I had to come here, its like part of the glue that is barly keeping me together....I just got home from work,.. there was another store going in the mall but I didn't volentier for it, would of been an all nighter,.. My store was supose to take till 11 or later, But as things are happening lately, I don't know if it's by the power of God or caroles help or both, the store got done early and I actually got to come home....I lost my nametag tonight,that upset me,.. and Im not sure if they ever will get me a new one, they order them from Orlando and lately the company is watching every penny, but I will ask tomarrow and see if I can get one on it's way to me. I feel somehow that Carole is not completely gone, I feel she passed through this doorway and now watches me and brings some comfort through the confusion and questions without answers.As I might of said before, I was so scared that she was mad at me for decisions and for lieing to her saying she would get better and come home, cause I never had any idea she would not.and worrying if she was ok.Well, the other day I feel I got atleast those 2 answers, I don't think she is mad at me anymore, I think she had ultamate love and continues to, and I think in some way that she is ok..Well, I work early in the AM tomarrow,Running that job by myself, and tomarrow night I have another Im to run with a team,.. Tonight my Team Leader says she is putting me in Every Store she is in, I don't know if I will survive, but I know that will definitly help the paycheck and maybe I can get my obligations taken care of while staying afloot...Well, untill next time,, take care all... Michael
Replies
Michael, you need and stop worrying so much. God takes care of us. He takes care of the lillies, he will take care of you. Worriness and fret will lead you to destruction. And you are so much more than that friend. Hugs