Hi..I got out of having to go to the office, I started driving got around the corner and just didn't want to go, I asked myself if I could try to get what i needed without going, so I went home and called and there going to bring my paperwork to tonights store and I can grab machines before I go.I don't really know what is happening, Im trying to go on, Im trying to do what I think I should but I don't feel like doing anything, I wish I could just stay in bed all the time or just vanish... I hate the way im feeling... I tell myself I can change it, but its not really working....I will work tonight and make a few dollars that will atleast probably help with the finantual side of my feelings a little..I had a friend that was going to loan some money, the transfer fell through, they don't really have money to lend either, and I would feel obligated to pay it back, so I wonder should I just forget about it or should I ask if they could still lend it to me, Im confused on that one also.My Brother called me today on his way to work, just checking in, I think he wishes he could help in some way, he keeps mighty busy with his work, I could never handle so many hours at work. Yeah, he barly has time to talk these days, but he found a few minutes for me today.Well, time seems to be flying,.work approches,.and it's like Im walking to the fireing squad, Strange I know but it feels that way, i see on my schedule it's estimated to be 5 hrs, they are always off, it will probably take longer.I cleaned up here just a bit the other night, I want to do more, but I know i can only do it a little at a time, I don't seem to have energy or my mind focused on anything yet.Well, im going to sneak out of here now,..take care everybody... Michael
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Michael,I know it\'s tough and I am sorry but the only thing I can do to help,like all your other friends,is listen.I hope that before you do anything,you take a little time and rest.I don\'t mean take time off work.I mean forget about the condition of the house and just rest.I hope that talking to us will help you.
Stick with it michael you are hurting right now but things will get better with time ,you need to spend some time with your brother!!!!
The way you feel right now, it isn\'t unusual. I felt like that in the beginning. Sometimes I still feel like that, but I have had to force myself to get out. I retired early and just stay at home. I had several invitations from friends to go out to lunch. I didn\'t want to, but I did. It helped. As far as the condition of my house, my husband and I both just don\'t worry about it right now. If we get something done, good, if not, oh well. It will be there tomorrow. I have finally signed up to volunteer to do \"Meals On Wheels\" for those that can\'t get out of the house. My husband still works, so that keeps him busy. It is hard right now, Michael and it is even worse when you have to force yourself to do something, but please try.