Hi well My work for today was canceled and rescheduled for next week so I have a Much needed day off. Tomarrow morning Im to go to a walgreens liquer store and put together a display with a computer and printer in it, I have no clue what to do I hope there are instructions,.. my work does crazy work like this sometimes.Im thinking about my Carole, i called her my little girl, I always told her she was going to be ok and come home, I truely believe that, I hope she knows I didnt mean to lie, I can't believe she is gone, I still want her home, it feels bad , I wake up and think I have to go to the hospital and see her, or I peek in her room and dont see her, Is her spirit around, Im not sure, and I get more confused...well, i should get moving today I slept in dont want to get up in the mornings, and I havent taken my medicines sometimes I just want to quit and give up but atleast right now I think my dad needs me, his dog was acting wierd last night and he was so afraid he was going to loose her, and i can imagine how lonley he is in that big family home all alone now with just his pup he got to make my mom happy when she was alive, I know without my little lady there is an empty void in my home now..Well, Another day to try to get through, i have had some friends on here hug and write me, it brings a smile to my day and a warm feeling in my heart to know in this awful and cruel world there are people who care and understand.Well, Im off to tackle this day,.. till later,.then...Michael
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Hi Michael,
It is an awful feeling, being lonely. I do have my husband, but he works alot. I just look at things in my home and think of Tina. Especially her pictures, from a baby on up. OMG, it is so hard. I will be doing something around the house and think \"it is getting late, I have to call Tina before she goes to bed\". It sounds like your Dad needs you. You can sure relate to what he has gone through. And you need him too. Don\'t give up on your meds. Ask yourself if your Carole would want you to be doing that. I know if Tina could talk to me she would say, \"Mom, get your rear in gear and do something. I am finally happy now and free of pain, don\'t feel sorry for me and especially not for yourself\". That\'s what I try to tell myself everyday. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn\'t. But I take one day and struggle through it. Maybe someday the struggle won\'t be quite so hard. Take care, Michael, and (((((((hugs))))))!!
Carol