Wow

It has been months since I have been able to get time alone on the internet to be able to just go off. A LOT has happened in the past few months. Don't even know where to start. All I know is it has been 10months since the affair and it still overwhelms me. But it has become the thing no one talks about. HATE feeling alone in it all. One thing is we are going to be living seperate but together. I found a job in a bigger city and he is going to stay in our small town with his job. The kids will be with me. Nervous about the whole thing. But I figure this is a good way for me to finally gain some indepenace and to test how strong we really are. The not so good days between us are fewer. Yet we still fight from time to time. I am getting better at remaining calm and explaining how I feel. He is also getting better at communicating with me. Still have not gotten couceling for it all but I NEED to. Have to go back to work. will write more later.