Hurt

Don't know why this hurts so much. All I want to do today is cry. Why did I give myself and my heart to someone who has very little emotions compared to me. I am what they call an over emotional person. I wear my heart on my sleeve. That one thing is what everyone says I need to change. They can't stand how emotional I get. But that's me. Why can't they just love ME? When will I be someone #1 priority? I can't even do that for myself. My mom or dad or any of my family never made me #1. Why do I have to change for people to get me and like me? I hate living this far out in the woods. Feel so alone. My guy grew up where it was not ok to show feelings. Does he accept me for me???? I really don't know that answer. I just want to feel special to someone all the time.