Well, here I am. I know it has been a long time but I need to vent. I can not take this lonelyness anymore. I'm so tired of being alone not haveing a man next to me, touching a man and him touching me back. Kissing him and him making me feel good & loved or just laying around with him and just having a man her for me. This HIV is killing me mently. It is almost two years and I can't remember what it feels like. I have be crying for days now not wanting to go out with my friend because I see her with someone and its makes me sad. Well, she finally figued me out and knows way I don't go out with her anymore. All I have been doing in life is working and coming home I talk to no one other then people at work and my kids and the one girlfriend I have. I need more in my life and don't know where to find it anymore i guess i got lost in the last two years. Is there really life after HIV? Yes there is but I van't find it