WOW!!!!!!It has been a couple of months since I wrote here! I have been busy with work and I guess just plan old doing nothing.   First I would like to wish everyone Happy Holidays; I hope everyone has a safe one.   For me I will be at work we are not going to have Christmas this year again. Last year I did not want to do any thing because I had found out I was HIV in October and I was just not me and did not care. This year I just don’t have the money and I am going to be filing Bankruptcy again. I need to file chapter 13 then in August chapter 7 because it has not been 8 years yet. I guess I was lost for a year, now I’m trying to get my life back on track.  Over all I think I have been doing great, I have not been sick. I think I know why I was getting sick so much it was my old boss; she had me so stressed out every day now with her gone I love going to work again. My health has been good. I have been dealing with my HIV well. I don’t duel on it much anymore.  I do know that I still have it and need to watch what I am doing. So yes, I’m still alone wishing I had a mate to spend time with. For my labs I won’t know anything until April because my doc said I did not have to go back until 6 months. My labs were good the last time I went.  For my sleep apnea well, I have not been wearing my mask it is so hard to get use to and when I fall asleep watching T.V it just does not get put on. This is so funny my son will yell at me when I start snoring really loud. Another funny thing my neighbor the other night could hear me threw our wall…LOL.One good thing I have not taken anything to help me sleep in over 2 months. I fall asleep on my own I still wake up during the night but I can fall back to sleep.  For my Depression that is also good I take my Effexor everyday with 1,000 gm of Vic C.  For my kids, well my daughter wants a baby, but she can’t afford it right now so she better wait a couple of year. It is just that her brother in laws girlfriend just had a baby, so I think she will get over it.  My oldest son, has been doing well he has been off meth for about a year now, but I worry about his drinking I think he does that too much.  For my youngest that would take me a book to write I wish he would just grow up and stop be so lazy and get is sh** together at school before he end up at court.  For thank giving I have all my kids for dinner it was a great time.  I guess this is it for now for all my friends on D/S I do think of you guys and Gals often just been to lazy to write I guess. I love ya all have a happy holidayTill next time. Love Mary