I guess I better write in my journal, it has been awhile sense I wrote.  I have been busy with work and being sick but better now, not getting a lot of sleep due to my insomnia and have been wakening up with anxiety and not being able to breath; it is like I’m going to die or something plus the in pain with my knee. I have just been so tired of all this.   So you might ask what I am going to do about all this. Well I am feeling better as I said. About my sleep well I did go to my doctor and he is referring me to a sleep doctor witch I have an appointment on Tuesday morning. I had to fill out this long questioner about me and have to do a sleep log. So that is going to be interesting. About the Knee I finally get to see my surgeon on next Friday. Then on Saturday is the eye doctor. I guess I better make an appointment for us to see the dentist; it is going on a year. So the next week is going to be busy plus a whole week of work not to mention that I need to work this weekend. How I hate working weekends but I do get a lot done because no one is around.While I’m talking about work that has been going alright my boss has not been around much, I did see her a couple of days this week but she was nice, so that is going good.  I have good news, My 15 year old son has a job that he started last week so he gets his first pay check today. It is not going to be much but he is excited about it. So he needs me to cash it for him. I told him that after this one he needs to stat saving up money so he can start driving school. I did tell him he needs to pay for that, I had to when I was his age and so did my daughter. Plus I believe it help them to learn if they want something they need to work for it. That is how I was taught.  On the subject about driving, I could not believe this my dad whom I don’t get along with, just gave me his 1995 Lincoln Town car, so now I have two cars. I will tell you this car drive nice, he a lot put about 4,000 into it for me. I guess my dad does love me to a point and it was nice seeing him. This is what I told my son I was going to do. I said John if you get all your credit in school this year that I will give you this car. So I hope it work. Beside he needs all the credits anyway. Then he says to me, if I don’t when I’m 18 can I buy the car for 2,000.  I said no. you are going to get it by making your credits, or the car will remain to be mine. I did have my 2005 Chevy Malibu up for sale but decided not to cell it at this time.   My 23 year old I have not seen him sense my daughter wedding but I guess he is doing good, that is what my daughter said. For my daughter, she is happy being married. She just took a test last week to try and get into the post office. That will be a good job to have. (Just hope she will never get Postal)…LOL…JK…I know that was bad. As for John he is back at school and yes still hates it, but I can’t believe that he has 2 years left after this one. How times go by fast. I have a IEP meeting at his school today to see what kind of help he needs to get though the school year. It is homecoming weekend for the school so he will be going to the game tonight and the dance after that, then Saturday he is going to the semi formal dance. I never did this stuff when I went to school. I’m just glad he enjoys it and has fun.  For me I stop seeing that guy I was cuddling with. Get this he calls me up and said that his penis burns. Was there anything that we did for him to get something? May I remind you that he does know I have HIV, and we never had sex yet……So I said I ‘m sorry I don’t need this in my life all I have wrong with me is HIV, and no other STD, plus we never had sex so GOODBYE. I have not heard from him after that. You know what that took my mind off of being with anyone again.  I have a new girlfriend in my life she lives right next door to me. We talk everyday and she comes over almost every other. She is a good friend if she sees my car home she will call and see if I’m ok, yes she does know I have HIV. I’m glad to have her.   Well, that is it for now, sorry that it is so long. I need to leave now and off to my Son School.   Later all, Mary