So today was a better day at work, I’m trying not to get to work early anymore. So this way I won’t have to put 10 hours or more in a day. The last two days I have only worked my 8 hour and I feel good about it, I’m so tired of putting in more hours and not getting paid for it, plus there is no appreciation for all the work I do.   Finally my doctor called me this morning and gave me my Viral Load numbers from July 19th, again he told me that my CD4 was 801 and then he told me that my Viral Load went up to 12,000. 3 months ago it was at 3,000, three months before that it was 12, 000. So what he said is that if it keeps going up the next time he wants to talk about the meds. I hope that I won’t have to take meds yet. I hear so many horror stories and I don’t want to start yet. But if I have to and want to live I guess I will have to. I also ask my doctor if I could see him every four months, because I can’t afford the bills. He did state that was ok, but I told him that I would go in October and see where my numbers were at that time. If my Viral Loads goes down then I will return after 4 months, if they go up then I will return after three months and he was ok with it.(I do have a very nice HIV doctor)  So I got home from work at 7:20pm so pooped and my knee killing me. The first thing my son said was I’m so hungry. After awhile I said here I will give you some money to get a sub or Taco Bell. So I gave him all the money I had that was my coffee money for work for the week. Guess what he said to me, why don’t you just make supper and keep your precious coffee money. I told him I was worn out and in pain. He said to me all you do is sit on your ass all day. I said I do not you have no Idea what I do. He continued to say that is all I do.I tell you I did not know who this kid was, I was so hurt from those little words and I still want to cry about it. But I have not. I will say one thing he will not get anything from me for a long time. He dose not even appreciate what I give or do for him.When he does come back home and if he says two words to me I’m going to give it to him, no not physically, but I am going to tell him to get his lazy ass up early and go find a job all he does is sleep and hang out with his friends and does nothing. He can’t even feed his bird.  I’m sorry for letting all my problems and frustration out but this is what this site is for to let us release our thoughts.  Well, I guess I will be done for now.  I do love all you guys here on D/SGod bless, Mary