Hi all, I’m just sitting hear it is Monday about 2pm. I did get my laundry done yesterday still need to go grocery shopping, was going to go today but kid did not want to go. I’m sure am not going by my self he is the one that’s eats it all.
My anxiety is getting to me again today have no idea why so I had to take another adivan, I really don’t want to rely on it but I guess I have to.
My knee is so killing me I could not sleep last night, I just feel like cutting it off. My pain meds are not even helping.
Some of you might have read my past journals that I have written about my father; well I ended up calling him because he told my brother that he was going to give me a car. I was thinking that if I had this car I could put mine up for sale and pay off my loan, before it gets taken away if I can not make the payment, plus it would save me $240.00 a month My dad has a 95 New Yorker and he said that I will get it in like October or November. This is the first thing he has ever given to me. I will be happy with that.
My daughter is so happy being married, I’m so happy for her, I wonder what it like to be married always wanted to just have not find that right man.
Talking about men, the one that I had over a week ago that I cuddle with, well I decided not to see him, and I just am having a very hard time wanting to be with a man again. I hope this doesn’t last to long or I will never find a man to spend that rest of my life with.
He did call me Saturday night when I was out getting mail; he left a message asking if I wanted to go have a couple of drinks and hang out. I did call back he never answered so I left a message saying I was just going to relax and watch TV. Plus my knee was killing me. Witch it was. So I will not call him again, I just hope I don’t run into him again, he does go to the same place I go to. I will have to be honest with him and just let him know that I’m not comfortable with my HIV yet.
My boss called today to see how I was doing, and then asked If I would be back at work on Wednesday, I said I would be there, the should of her voice made me shake. What was that about?
I guess that is enough rumbling for now, off to watch General Hospital
Peace out, Mary
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missmary, I hope your knee issue gets addressed as soon as possible. I know what its like having been wheel chair bound at one point. I feel for you and also understand your anxiety about things in general, so what if you have to take a pill, that\'s what they are for. I encourage you to be friends with this man even with telling him youre not comfy with the hiv. If he gets tired of just being a friend you\'ll find out eventually. There is nothing wring with having male friends that are not lovers. Don\'t look a gift horse in the mouth. Please stay off that knee and feel better.
Yeah, I agree - might not hurt to be just friends if he is okay with it? It\'s a step. Hope your knee feels better! That isn\'t the best area of the body to have an injury, I know from experience. Oh gosh - you watch GH too? LOL... what about AMC & OLTL? ;x