So I went to my doctors this morning, my CD4 is over 800 my viral load numbers have not come back yet.I informed my doctor what has been going on with me, I think he wants me to see a doctor for me head I thing he thinks I’m going crazy and I’m not. I just forgot to take me depression meds for a couple of days.About the bump on my forehead well he gave me something for thatLast night I had a hard time sleeping, I started freaking out when I went to bed and almost hyperventilated, I told my son to go to the neighbors because I new she has Velum. I took one and became relaxed but could not sleep the rest of the night, ever time I tried to sleep; I would wake up because I could not breathe, so I had to sit up for awhile, this went on all night. My doctor gave me some adivan I will try that tonight.I also asked him if I could have surgery on my knee even though I was HIV he said yes, and encourage me to go soon because of the pain I have and it is hard to walk.So overall I guess my HIV, my depression and my insomnia came and bite me this week. My doctor took me off work this today and tomorrow and I will be back on Thursday.Also my HIV case manager always comes with me to my appointments he is very nice. He brought me a bag full of condoms and waster base lubricate. Plus he and my doctor told me what I can and cannot to during sex. Now I’m ready and need a man now.Oh, I did not know this there are condoms for women so he gave me some of those also. I guess I will sleep all day tomorrow and get my rest.Well I hope you are all doing well my friends on D/S. off to watch a movie and lay down.Mary