It has been awhile since I wrote, I have been very busy.
Yes, Im all settled in my home.
I have been working a lot went to a supervisor training course for three days I really enjoyed that. We had to take a 120 question test I past it. I was happy about that.
Then I came home after work today went to get the mail, what was is there my results to that test I took the end of March that was about 2 hours away and I was very sick taking that test, for my Certification test I had to take to be a Certified Dietary Manager.
Well all, I will tell you Im very sad and very depressed right now I did not pass it. Again Im a failure, that is the story of my life and yes, I will feel sorry for my self right now. I ended up calling my boss and all she said was we will talk about it on Monday. Hmmmm what will happen to me now.
I can not stop crying all I think about and what to do is drink and get drunk and say F*** it. I just dont know about my life anymore.
For My daughter, her bridal shower is this Sunday, I should be excited but Im not too excited about anything anymore. I will make the macaroni salad they want and put a fake smile on my face just for her, and watch her open all the gifts I bought her. I hope she like them it is not what she wanted me to buy, but oh well, she is just to spoil.
For my youngest son, we went to drop off about 5 applications for a job for him, I hope he gets one. He just lost a good friend of his Monday of this week. She got hit by a car and later died that night, she was only 15. That brought back a memory of mine when my daughter got hit by a car when she was 13. It is just a hard thing to go through, and I feel for her family. A child should never go before the parents. I guess the lord has plan for all of us.
For my oldest, again no one has heard from him, I know he has to go back to court and do about 20 more days so he says, but he is back with the wrong friend again. He is suppose to be in his sister wedding, the way he is going, who knows.
Well, I hope everyone else is doing well.
BFN, Mary
Yes, Im all settled in my home.
I have been working a lot went to a supervisor training course for three days I really enjoyed that. We had to take a 120 question test I past it. I was happy about that.
Then I came home after work today went to get the mail, what was is there my results to that test I took the end of March that was about 2 hours away and I was very sick taking that test, for my Certification test I had to take to be a Certified Dietary Manager.
Well all, I will tell you Im very sad and very depressed right now I did not pass it. Again Im a failure, that is the story of my life and yes, I will feel sorry for my self right now. I ended up calling my boss and all she said was we will talk about it on Monday. Hmmmm what will happen to me now.
I can not stop crying all I think about and what to do is drink and get drunk and say F*** it. I just dont know about my life anymore.
For My daughter, her bridal shower is this Sunday, I should be excited but Im not too excited about anything anymore. I will make the macaroni salad they want and put a fake smile on my face just for her, and watch her open all the gifts I bought her. I hope she like them it is not what she wanted me to buy, but oh well, she is just to spoil.
For my youngest son, we went to drop off about 5 applications for a job for him, I hope he gets one. He just lost a good friend of his Monday of this week. She got hit by a car and later died that night, she was only 15. That brought back a memory of mine when my daughter got hit by a car when she was 13. It is just a hard thing to go through, and I feel for her family. A child should never go before the parents. I guess the lord has plan for all of us.
For my oldest, again no one has heard from him, I know he has to go back to court and do about 20 more days so he says, but he is back with the wrong friend again. He is suppose to be in his sister wedding, the way he is going, who knows.
Well, I hope everyone else is doing well.
BFN, Mary
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missmary, perhaps you can take the test over again? You never know what you\'re gonna hear on Monday. I hope the bridal shower goes well even if you have to act as if. I pray your son is safe and he gets to court and the other son gets a job. All I can say is the shower is for your daughter, you need to be there on every level as a gift to her, even if you fake it till you make it. Blessings & I missed you.
Thank Pozfem, your thoughts are helpful. Yes, I could take the test again but this time I need to pay for it, and i don\'t think I would be ready for it on the October testing time, I would need to buy the study guide and study till next March. I\'m not good at test and i have a comprehetion problem. Miss you to Mary