Lets see, I guess I have been doing pretty well, with my health, just a little depressed because of my son.

Im so tiered of him making a mess in my house and not cleaning up after him self, he will be 15 years old on Monday and I refuse to give him anything. I was going to take him to a movie on Tuesday on my day off, now he will have to help me clean. I have already spent 100 on him. Thats all he gets.

I said in my past journal I had bought and returned a surround sound system, I had decided not to buy another one, it is to much money and I am learning again that I dont always need to get thing my son wants, he will be learning the hard way now. I need to focus on me my bill, and my daughters wedding. I give too much to my son and I get nothing in return, time for him to learn and grow up.

I ended up call the man I believe that gave me HIV and told him that I need not to know his result, because there is no other way I came in contact with it. Well he ended up calling me later, and said that he will go on Monday, he told me to call him. I said no you will call me. We ended up talking about 1 hours.

In some ways I still want this man. Why?

Some one told me to check out Thinkpoz, I did and signed up to it, I hope that I can find a man; I cant take being alone anymore.

17 more days until my b-day, I guess I will be alone again another year. I just hope its not going to be like Valentines days.

The weather here is getting better, there has been no snow for a day now, I just hope it melts soon.

I hope everyone has a great weekend; this is my long weekend at work.

Be well, Mary