You now when you get emails and you can save them, I had saved this email from my daughter because we had a fight over me going out and getting drunk back in December, when I started feeling better after I was in the hospital.
I read this again, and I know why I kept it, because she is so right and this is why I love her so much. I did well with this child and I have a lot to learn from her.
I hope you enjoy.
Mom I know you are going through a lot. I can't even begin to imagine what it's like in your shoes.
I'm not mad at you for not using protection, I believe things happen for a reason, and maybe this happened to you as an eye opener. not that youre a bad person because NO ONE is perfect, everyone does wrong, but maybe you can really think about the way you live and have been living your life.
Maybe it's time for you to commit your life fully and completely to god. I'm not trying to sound like a weirdo. Believe me, in the past I thought I had god because I believed in him as I always have but it wasn't until recently, in fact one thing that maybe really did it was finding out you had this disease, that it made me really think about life.
I'm not going to lie but I got really depressed and I didn't know what life had in store for me. Then I decided I wasn't going to live for anyone but god, and he has really transformed my life.
When ever I'm down I ask him for strength to get through the day. And just the things that are recently happening to me, I'm sure he's really there. I'm trying to live in obedience to god, and live for him in every day life, because this life isn't it by far. The bible says we will live for eternity, and it's gonna be great we're going to get new physical bodies, not just spirits whisping around with music. we're going to live on earth with no pain or death, and new physical animals, because we are physical beings and god likes physical things, so there is something great to look forward to, don't think this is it for you mom because it's not.
Having HIV can only make you a stronger person. As can god. The reason I lashed out at you was because in some ways youre not living by god. You say that you have god and are saved, but why do you say your in the light and know god when you are walking in darkness? I just want to share with you the happiness and comfort that I now have.
Anyways on another note, I will go to support groups with you, and we will have a movie night this weekend. Is Johnnie gonna be around?
Well anyways rommie noodle, I'll talk to you later.
And I love you and will always NO MATTER WHAT!!!
-Isha
I read this again, and I know why I kept it, because she is so right and this is why I love her so much. I did well with this child and I have a lot to learn from her.
I hope you enjoy.
Mom I know you are going through a lot. I can't even begin to imagine what it's like in your shoes.
I'm not mad at you for not using protection, I believe things happen for a reason, and maybe this happened to you as an eye opener. not that youre a bad person because NO ONE is perfect, everyone does wrong, but maybe you can really think about the way you live and have been living your life.
Maybe it's time for you to commit your life fully and completely to god. I'm not trying to sound like a weirdo. Believe me, in the past I thought I had god because I believed in him as I always have but it wasn't until recently, in fact one thing that maybe really did it was finding out you had this disease, that it made me really think about life.
I'm not going to lie but I got really depressed and I didn't know what life had in store for me. Then I decided I wasn't going to live for anyone but god, and he has really transformed my life.
When ever I'm down I ask him for strength to get through the day. And just the things that are recently happening to me, I'm sure he's really there. I'm trying to live in obedience to god, and live for him in every day life, because this life isn't it by far. The bible says we will live for eternity, and it's gonna be great we're going to get new physical bodies, not just spirits whisping around with music. we're going to live on earth with no pain or death, and new physical animals, because we are physical beings and god likes physical things, so there is something great to look forward to, don't think this is it for you mom because it's not.
Having HIV can only make you a stronger person. As can god. The reason I lashed out at you was because in some ways youre not living by god. You say that you have god and are saved, but why do you say your in the light and know god when you are walking in darkness? I just want to share with you the happiness and comfort that I now have.
Anyways on another note, I will go to support groups with you, and we will have a movie night this weekend. Is Johnnie gonna be around?
Well anyways rommie noodle, I'll talk to you later.
And I love you and will always NO MATTER WHAT!!!
-Isha
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I\'m certainly no born again, but I do believe in a higher power guiding my life and being there when I just don\'t feel I have any strength left to go another second. Your daughter certainly sounds as if she\'s got her head screwed on right, Mary. I\'m sure you feel lucky to have her in your life.
I feel really lucky to have her.
I love her so much, don\'t get me wrong I do love my sons also. My oldest is leading a different kind of life. One that I have to worry alot. My youngest you know the age 15 i think, well, I working on that one.
With out my childred I think I would be lost. I thank God for them also.
You see I was not suppose to have children, three doctors have told me this when I was 14-17 years of age. I had a child for each of those doctors. The lord has been there more then once for me.
yes Missmary you did good on that one.
Your daughter sounds like she has the answers to what were all wanting to know! How can one be happy ? she knows, were never alone and God will never give us more then we can handle, any time things are bad and you can\'t stand alone let God know, you need to know that he is with you and I\'m sure your daughters Love will shine the light to you:)
I hope that her letter helps you when you think times are tuff. I know my sons live there life with all kinds of Love. They belive has your daughter does and it\'s a wonderful feeling to know we\'ve done so well. I know my sons help keep my sprite alive:)