I have no Idea what just happened to me. I have not been depressed lately,I have been in a goodmood.
All I did was go to bed, it was dark and quite like eveynight, then there it hit me, I started to cry and felt very lonely again.
I can not stand it anymore. I can not deal with this, I know I will never have a man to love me anymore. Nor do I think I can let someone love me like that for fear that I will give them HIV.
I hate that guy that gave me HIV, I will never know what his results were, because he was to let me take him today to find out, and of course he lied to me again.
I will not let myself call him anymore I wash my hand of him, I beleive that maybe he does not want to beleive he did this to me, or that he did know and just let me take him to get test to show me whatever.
Again I fell sick to my stomach, when I was first sick with this I was sick to my stomach alot, here I go again.
I guess I will try and go back to sleep again.
Thanks for listening.
Mary
All I did was go to bed, it was dark and quite like eveynight, then there it hit me, I started to cry and felt very lonely again.
I can not stand it anymore. I can not deal with this, I know I will never have a man to love me anymore. Nor do I think I can let someone love me like that for fear that I will give them HIV.
I hate that guy that gave me HIV, I will never know what his results were, because he was to let me take him today to find out, and of course he lied to me again.
I will not let myself call him anymore I wash my hand of him, I beleive that maybe he does not want to beleive he did this to me, or that he did know and just let me take him to get test to show me whatever.
Again I fell sick to my stomach, when I was first sick with this I was sick to my stomach alot, here I go again.
I guess I will try and go back to sleep again.
Thanks for listening.
Mary
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