ok, I started this jounal and here is part 1.

How did people treat me after I told them? The first person I told was my boss because I did not want to lose my job for being off work so long. What she said was Im going to have to talk with human resources, (basically telling me that I might not have a job). After they found out they called me in the hospital and was very nice and caring, they said if I need any thing to let them know and to get well and come back when you are feeling better. There are about 6 people at work that know, I know that I can trust them not to tell any one. In my work place there are so many rumors going around, about everyone that is why I told these 6 people. One of the persons I told new and ask me if it was HIV because her brother has AIDS. I do trust all but one of these friends of mine. Two months later I was in a meeting with the director of are facility, I was going to tell him then, but my boss said he already knows, I told her I never told him. My boss told me that she told him because she had to seeing why it was her boss. Let me tell you I was really pissed off. I did go to the human resource the next day to say something about it, because I believe that it should have been my choice when to tell him if I was even going to. They were one step ahead of me and told her that it was not right, and talked to her about it. So at this point work is cool.
I then called home and told my oldest son, I was still in the hospital; he had not much to say. He then called my daughter and told her that I had AIDS; he did not understand the difference between HIV & AIDS. My daughter was having a sex party at that time with a bunch of girls friends of hers, she ended up falling apart, I dont remember who called who me or her, I did inform her that it was HIV, she came right over to the hospital. My daughter is the best thing I my life, sometimes I think she is the mother, not me. LOL. Im not sure how many of her friends know. I believe I then told my sister in-law, because somehow she found out I was in the hospital, (it is so amazing how people find things out). I did tell her then she told my brother, He came to see me in the hospital the same time my daughter was over, and that was the last time I heard from him. My sister In law was suppose to come and see me but she never did and I have not heard from her to this day either. My first cousin call my in the hospital but I never told her until now, she told me thanks for telling her and that her and my godmother are praying for me.
I will write poor on this later. Mary