This is my first time writing a jounal, in my whole life. lets see if this will help me.....Today I had a so so day, I met my daughter at the collage so I could get books for her, before the semester started.....Then brought my youngest son out for breakfast and did some shopping.I think I should not be at the stores, but shopping makes me feel better.....Then I called the city jail to see if my oldest son was back in jail.......I have not seen him sence Thankgiving, that is a long story..will write about that another time. Plus his 23rd birthday is Friday the 19th, and this will be the 3rd year I have not got to see or talk or hug him. I do blame alot of what he is doing in his life on me. But he tells me not to. I did have one good thing today, my daughter and I talked a little about her getting married in Vegas in July. more on that later....I guess my next journal will be alot more about me when i was growning up and then will get to the present.seeing why my life sucked most of it...Well this it is for now.. the more I think about the thinks in my past and my HIV...I want to start crying...So I will leave this for now..I want to thank any one that listen and write back...Love Mary
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For your first time writing a journal entry, I\'d have to say it\'s off to an excellent start. Life is all about perception. There is equal amounts of good as bad. We just have to re-train our focus. In my case God played a gigantic part.
Welcome Mary. I AM sure we can learn a lot from each other. I learned my HIV status after donating blood in 1996. That was over 10 years ago and yah, I still have moments when I cry about it or anger. However, I also have done many fantastic things in life that I wouldn\'t ordinarily have done had it not been for HIV. I learned I was not invincible and ran with it. BE WELL.
Thank you, mschif & KentuckyIrish, My daughter got me back into church, which I bad at, I olny went one tine, but I\'m trying. It was good the first time I went back. I beleive that god goes thing for a reason.
I had never givien blood before, I was thinking about it like a month before I was told I had HIV. Now I guess I can never give in that way now.