UGGG...
Very frustrated. Another horrible night of sleep. It's very demoralizing feeling like you're starting to do a little bit better and suddenly sleeping awfully 5 of the last 6 nights. Back in my peak insomnia days this is the way it used to be...an average of 1 good night of sleep per week. Sometimes it would be sleep good 1 day of the week, sometimes it would be sleep bad all 7 days of a week and then sleep 2 good nights in a row and go back to sleeping bad. But it averaged out to only 1 good night of sleep. This is the worst stretch I've had since then. I was suicidal at times back then. I'm not at that point yet I really need some sleep or else things are going to get ugly. On top of sleeping horribly, I have all this stupid repair work that needs to get done. My laptop has been infected with adware and malware for a long time now and the cover around the screen is cracking and breaking. Today I wake up from a bad night of sleep and discover my computer now is some "windows recovery mode" and won't even turn on! So this is a whole new symptom.
I hope they can even fix all of these problems. Don't even know how much this is going to cost. It might be so expensive that it'd be more worth it to just buy a new lap top. But more importantly, I start class again in less than 2 weeks and if my computer isn't working and functional then I'm going to have to either make trips up to the university to use their computers(hour commute) just for my 2 online classes, and that's not including regular checking emails, writing assignments, etc., or I can use my mom's computer. Both are extremely inconvenient. But wow this day sucks and I have even more stupid repair work than just that computer. My trucks seat belt isn't working, my printer isn't working, my bathroom towel holder is broken, I've lost my glasses for over 2 months now and haven't been able to find them, I've been without a light in my bedroom for almost a year. I am just so irritated today and everything in my life feels broken! Freaking tuition is going to be like $6000 for this semester and I wanted to use the money I've been making for that but no...i'll be using it on all the stupid replacement or repair work.
I hope they can even fix all of these problems. Don't even know how much this is going to cost. It might be so expensive that it'd be more worth it to just buy a new lap top. But more importantly, I start class again in less than 2 weeks and if my computer isn't working and functional then I'm going to have to either make trips up to the university to use their computers(hour commute) just for my 2 online classes, and that's not including regular checking emails, writing assignments, etc., or I can use my mom's computer. Both are extremely inconvenient. But wow this day sucks and I have even more stupid repair work than just that computer. My trucks seat belt isn't working, my printer isn't working, my bathroom towel holder is broken, I've lost my glasses for over 2 months now and haven't been able to find them, I've been without a light in my bedroom for almost a year. I am just so irritated today and everything in my life feels broken! Freaking tuition is going to be like $6000 for this semester and I wanted to use the money I've been making for that but no...i'll be using it on all the stupid replacement or repair work.
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