27 days later
Well today marks the 27th day after she has dumped me. I am getting a little bit better. I wish I was a whole lot better. I know that I am way better off than most people on this site. Most of you have been married for years and with kids. I didn't even made it to the our wedding day. It is a blessing and also a curse a think. A blessing I don't have to deal with a divorce and kids involved. A curse that I still love her and never had a chance to be married to her. In my mind heart and soul I have decided to let her go. She is already in a relationship with some other guy. So I have no chance but to let her go. Yeah it still hurts my heart. I have been staying busy hanging out with family and friends. If not for them I would probably have gone crazy and insane and admitted to an asylum by now. My first week was extreme hell. It is still hell but not extreme. I have gone out with friends and got some interest from some lady friends. I feel like I am not ready for any dating as of right now. I feel like I don't want to use anyone or maybe worst I may fall in love with the new girl and she leaves me and the hurts starts all over again. I need to heal from this first and learn to better myself and love myself and be happy with myself so that no one can hurt me like this again. Friends I need your prayers as I will pray for each and everyone of you. Thanks
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I will pray for you. You sound like you have a good plan. Better yourself before falling into another relationship. I think you have the right idea. I know for sure I am not ready to date. Why hurt someone unintentionally when you know you can\'t be completely present for them. I get it. Hang in there. After my husband told me last week that he never really wanted to marry me and that he felt pressured to do so, if it wasn\'t for my two beautiful children I would\'ve wished that 18 years ago he would have broken it off with me too. I know it hurts anyway but I think you are truly lucky that this happened now instead of later like the majority of us.
Sadbutrue, sounds like you\'ve made progress in such a short time. Sounds like you have a focus. It\'s about you! You want to better yourself and I\'m glad to hear that.