27 August 2017

Before my husband and I stopped talking indefinitely, he told me I should dedicate myself to some sort of higher power. Find a religion and become engrossed in it. Allow myself to put my time and energy into studying the literature materails for it and discover a part of myself in the discoveries I make in religion. He knows I have always been interested in wicca and magick, he even bought books for me to read on the subject so I could start my practice. I never read them, I always said I "didn't have the time". I have plenty of time now that he's moved out. I find myself sitting in my new apartment often feeling bored and lonely. I can change that feeling, I can dedicate the time I spend sitting there feeling sorry for myself learning something. I have started reading a beginners text book on wicca and witchcraft. I am taking notes in my journal. I want to learn. I want to better myself. I think he's right, that I need a higher power to help guide me though my life. Doing it on my own has gotten me nothing but failures.